My Son

To my Son. The best thing to happen to me. The greatest gift God has given me. The gift I gave back.

I know where you are. 

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I honor you each day. In many different ways, throughout my days. Some are more difficult but I choose to honor you. 

You are not lost, my son. You are wrapped in tight with your family and we celebrate your essence. 

We know where you are. 

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I've been working hard on healing and growing as I'll never be over this. My work here is not done... so much more to overcome, to improve, and persevere through. And despite what may come, I choose to trust in this walk as I journey with my Lord and Savoir leading and guiding the way. 

There are things God has in store for me, for us, for our legacy. 

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I daydream of holding, kissing, and lotioning you up. Seeing your face light up in moments of joy and being there to comfort you when tears fall. To watch you play with your cousins, see your aunts spoil you rotten, or hear about the adventures you'd share with your uncle. And oh how your grandparents would glow with delight at the sight of you.

Mmm, to imagine. It warms my aching heart.

I know where you are.

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I celebrate today as if it were yours. I celebrate today with joy, laughter, tears, and daydreams. 

Thank you

I love you forever, Happy Birthday

Mommy. 

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